I am all of you

Facing our innermost selves

As described in Sheldon Kopp’s book “If you meet the Buddha on the Road, Kill Him!”:

“No patient can recover his/her own beauty and innocence without first facing the ugliness and evil in him/herself. The ways in which we live, the experience of our own sinful souls, still is itself our only hell.”

okay, so i know this sounds dark, drab and kinda depressing, but I think it’s wonderful. don’t get hung up on evil and hell. find the message. we are not saints. we are human and full of error and character defects. i do stupid and selfish things at times and have gone through periods when my life felt like hell. in order to recover and restore that innocence and beauty….i had to and must continue to face that hell.

it reminds me of a jo dee messina song called “it gets better”. As i understand, she wrote this song about her personal struggle with addiction. I think it’s goes along with this same concept.

“This old world can be cruel sometimes
When you’re looking for answers
You can’t seem to find
No one understands what you’re going through

Oh I know it can get lonely out there
When you feel like nobody cares
Well you look around thinking
If they only knew
Well I do

Chorus: I’ve felt the chill
of this world cut down to
the bone
I’ve walked many a mile down
this road on my own
I’ve been through hell on my knees
Come face to face with the devil
And I know that it’s hard to believe
But it gets better

Time is a healer but we can’t see how
When you’re caught in the moment
And the hurting is now
We don’t wanna see that maybe somethings
Weren’t meant to figure out.”